things i wish grandma had told me….

things i wish grandma had told me even though i wouldn’t have listened and probably would have put my hands over my ears and shouted “nananananana”

(Originally Posted on May 4, 2011 by hopefulandfree)


When you’re young, sleep seems like a nuisance–
Sleep gets in the way of party time and reduces
the number of chances you could use to fool around with
your boyfriend, and it causes you to miss TV shows that your
parents don’t want you to see for no good reason whatsoever.
When you get old, you realize that sleep was this
amazing free, legal drug
that cannot be purchased at any price
after a certain age.
Insomnia becomes a life long condition thereafter
which you won’t see coming and will, in fact,
catch you completely off guard (but not sleeping),
especially if you were a champion sleeper in your youth.
When people advise you to simply take some melatonin, to keep your
bedroom dark, and to turn off the TV and dim the lights
one hour before bedtime
sometimes you will want to stab them in the eye.
But you won’t stab them.
When you are pruning a lot of rose bushes,
on a fine spring day, and you fling the thorny branches
into one impressively huge pile, to show your dear partner-in-crime
how much work you got done that day
but mostly to prove to yourself that you’ve still got it in you
(the will to live, that is, even when covered in scratches and dried blood)
when you fling the last fucking goddamn needle-encrusted branch
on top of the motherfucking heap, take special care to not release
from your grip
(sending it into the inner-most reaches of the treacherous mound)
your favorite and most expensive pair of pruning shears. Because,
when you do, you will leave them there intending to retrieve them
the following day, but it will start raining that night,
will continue raining for the next six days, and by the time you
locate your shears and hold them next to your heart
(after wiping blood from your arms and hands and face)
they will be rusted closed.
So. You will want to go to the liquor store and purchase
Kahlua and vodka, and drink until the neighbors call and tell you to
“tone down that god-awful rendition of Inna-gada-davida,
or whatever the hell it is you are singing at the top of your lungs”
and you will want to scream obscenities back at them while
continuing to swing on the same tire swing your kids used when
they were still under your magic spell and thought for sure you were the best
mother in the universe and they vowed to live with you forever
but instead of driving to the liquor store you will, wisely,
eat half a plate of fudge, enjoy every bite, and
reminisce with your sweetheart about your well-spent youth
while watching “Weeds” season one on netflix instant.
You will not, however, turn off the TV and dim the lights
one hour before bedtime because it will not make any
fucking difference in whether you can fall asleep or stay asleep

that night. You might as well stay up making love with your heart’s fancy

until three in the morning because you


fall asleep



NewMe on May 5, 2011 at 6:59 am said:

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on May 5, 2011 at 7:31 am said: 
:) Life is good. Homemade fudge plus memories plus sweet love with..…priceless.

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Barb on May 5, 2011 at 3:16 pm said:
Ain’t that the truth. Eat, drink and be merry for we won’t sleep tonight anyways.


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on May 5, 2011 at 7:42 pm said:
Thanks for your comment! I think about insomnia because it has plagued me for over a decade, and learning about people’s perspectives on sleep throughout history has helped me come to terms with it and make peace with it. Gayle Greene’s book, “Insomnia”, was a wonderful eye opener. She writes about first sleep and second sleep, and the pause in the middle that people accepted and took for granted at various times in history. Now when I wake at 3 (if I was able to fall asleep), I tell myself “that’s normal, that was first sleep”, and then I stay calm and know that second sleep will either come in a little while (30-45 minutes), or it won’t. I don’t get to control that. It’s okay. It’s part of the rythmn of life. Sigh.

for children without a future

for children without a future
Originally Posted on June 20, 2011 by hopefulandfree, poem reblogged unrevised on July 25, 2014


like going back in time, and being wise, and free,
with nothing to lose, like freedom’s willing slave,
only strange and new like kittens in a box, beside a river moving swift,
you can’t predict the future, not a bit, you don’t care, the door stays locked,
you see with clarity, no mirror to say who you should be,
confusion, step by step, through mud and brush into an opening,
a moment’s hesitation and you’re past the edge, in the abyss,
swallowing the discontent of all around you,
you smell their fear, their need to know runs down like sweat,
a storm of
breathing rocks and stones,
the mouth is closed, no words emerge,
the stifling of each sound,
each call for help remains unheard,
she’s gone from this place into that
where peace confounds, no joyous celebration or private cake,
no candles burned, no awkward songs of false praise–
we leave you now to face your fate, alone,
we go to other worlds away
from here, away from you, to quiet
silent still formed bodies–
row by row, immoveable in graceless grace, your blessing never needed,
what is this place, what is the darkened cave of life unsaved,
we will not go in quiet peace, unseen, unheard,
we struggle and we weep–
they make us go to sleep.

more free vulgarity from the proletariat

more free vulgarity from the proletariat: Poem with comments; poem originally posted on June 20, 2011 by hopefulandfree,; reblogged with (unrevised) original comments  on  July 25, 2014


i start poem after poem, get a few lines in,
then stop and simmer.
it’s delicious. i get it now.
we’re supposed to blame ourselves–
feel ashamed for going under, feel guilty for not getting help–
as if there are good people waiting in buildings downtown,
to assist folks like us.
isn’t that what you people tell yourselves?
(yeah, honey, you people)
never before in history have smart,
educated moms and pops had a platform
like this, the internet, an utterly useless device
except as source for your entertainment,
a place where we can cry out in powerlessness and fear,
where we can express our sadness at the loss of everything we’ve built,
because we were stupid enough to leave the house,
get hit by cars,
fall from ladders,
or get laid off,
and then get sick,
or we needed to bury our kid,
or required antidepressants,
or purchased surgery, or gasoline, or food,
all of which devoured
our pathetic pay checks,
and then our savings, bit by bit,
a pittance, really, a couple hundred grand,
before we turned around and said,
what the fuck? holy shit.
it’s funny. i know.
i see that now.


we are all the newest show.
better than reality t.v.
better than the super bowl.
better than the roman coliseum.
we’re like the triangle factory girls marching on the avenue
but with our sad songs of hope zapped as if by magic,
right into your homes, your wireless laptops,
and you–lucky you!–get to watch us go up in flames,
again and again,
while we jump from windows,
scream, moan, beg for mercy, and
hurl obscenities at you
on our way to hell.
you watch and feel so bad.
oh the humanity. the pathos.
because it’s all about you.
we provide for your needs. always have.
we’re your pathway to compassion,
your source of empathy and virtue.
think about it, how could you feel good about anything important–
without us to feel sorry for? without us to care about and help?
we are your gift of spirituality,
we make your world make sense.
our lives explain god to you.
chew on that.
i’ll wait.
okay, yeah, never mind,
hurry past,
that’s cool too,
i couldn’t possibly be talking about you.
of course, it doesn’t matter if i am.
obviously, i’m mad.
i get it.
and, hey, i’m tired of whining, too.
i’m tired of stating the obvious
so you can feel sorry about eating too much,
go on another diet and feel virtuous,
so you can complain about your hunger and your difficulty with emptiness–
so you can keep wishing something could be done.
i’m sick now.
literally need to throw up.
sick of listening to people like you
who insist that god has a plan, that god has my back,
that science and research are value free, here to serve all humanity,
who think we can find ways to trace the mysterious causes of disease
independently of social conditions and individual exposure to oppression,
as if that made any fucking sense (but it’s crystal clear to you, so that’s
what matters), you–
who think the study of nutrition and exercise and illness
can somehow be teased–oh so carefully–away from thousands of
unidentifiable variables,
so we can worship all together, like one people,
at the feet of medicine, and progress, and enlightenment.
when at last we find the cure. you and me.
as if science can repair our shared discomfort. yours and mine.
and yet.


did you even know that our drinking water here is polluted with
radioactivity from bombs built to drop and fry millions,
men, women, and children (in that order of course), and
for over 50 years, without being told,
we gave it to our children and our grandchildren, with love,
every fucking day,
so they could drink,
cup after cup,
till all our cups runneth over with your goddamn goodness and fucking mercy,
and still–
no one gives a flying piece of crap

(’cause lady, words are free)–
we are insignificant rats,

living on reservations, cars up on blocks,
dead lawns strewn with rusted tonka trucks you donated so generously
and noxious weeds, and empty swing sets with busted ladders from sears,
where our kids once climbed to watch imaginary dumbo trains on the horizon,
that’s right, hurry past!
we are annoying flies on that pile of shit in your neighbor’s yard
down the street–
the pile you wish would go away but for god sake you can’t be expected
to help clean it up,
it wasn’t your dog, after all,
that left that particular dump,
and wait, there’s more,
here’s where it gets really good.
you actually call yourself
full stop.
yes. that’s the funniest part.
plus, you can’t understand why we’re bitter. (i’m holding my sides now.)
you are christians.
(i’m ready to pee my pants.)
and we’re those crazy masses,
or those
thankfully invisible
less fortunate ones,
ranting away on the internet for all to see,
as if we had no shame.
and that–
my friend,
well, yeah,
that’s what keeps us going,
if you must know the harsh truth.
we get to watch your freak show.
the one you are so fucking proud of,
your special spiritual lives on parade,
which makes it all the more
outrageous and hilarious
and tragic.
not to mention–
your righteous indignation and your innocence and your compassion
for those less-blessed by god
than you,
for those poor bastards
who stuff your ambien and zoloft–uncontaminated–into boxes that we ship
to your neighborhood wallgreens, so you can


cruise on over there,
and sleep fine at night.
my god it’s wild.
and you’re missing the weirdest part of all–
watching you is like viewing a sit-com being broadcast from outer space
about an alien race that thinks they’re god’s chosen, masters of the universe–
and right this very minute, even as you read this,
those aliens are making plans
to meet you and hear your poignant story of christ’s sacrifice,
they’re looking forward to having you over for supper,
to dine on your well nourished thighs,
like drum sticks only bigger.


now won’t that be nice?
what? oh, yeah.
paper or plastic?
have a great day!



DebraSY on June 20, 2011 at 2:49 pm said:
Wow. What to say? On behalf of my brethern and sisterns, I’m sorry.

I was Unitarian for 11 years; married a beer-drinking ELCA Lutheran. When we were in the throes of infertility and on the cusp of adoption, a social worker advised us to find a single, “compromise” religion, so that a birth mother would find us more “stable,” and entrust us with her baby. Long story condensed: I’m now urban Mennonite, and I embrace the Christian mythology. Nay, I’ll say it, I am Christian.

It does not lead me to judge you (lest I be judged too) or predict your place in eternity (lest that particular judgment predict mine). It leads me to care. It gives me a model of peace, war and violence resistance, service, sacrifice and caretaking (that many followers don’t interpret as I do). It gives me the tool of prayer, to help sort my thoughts (but I don’t know taht it makes tangible changes of some mystical nature). It provides me grace when my faith falls short.

I will pray for you, if that is okay? If you would find it offensive, I will pray for me instead. Or both. Your choice.

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on June 20, 2011 at 8:37 pm said:
i accidently heard some rhetoric of a certain political party that shall remain nameless, you know, their need to ensure that freeloaders don’t steal more of this country away from the righteous, etc, etc. keep thinking this must be what german radio sounded like–just a bit–way back when…

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Screaming Fat Girl on June 20, 2011 at 6:49 pm said:
I’m not religious, so I don’t fit much of the theme of what you’re writing about. However, I think everyone makes sense of the world as best they can with whatever tools they have at hand. For me, it’s psychology. For others, it’s religion or science (which sometimes seem so similarly regarded by their respective adherents that there is little difference between them). Sadness and pain, like happiness and pleasure, are not zero sum games nor are they relative. There’s always someone worse off than you. There’s always someone better off than you. Each person lives with their own particular torments and delights, and it’s useless for us to sit in judgement of their right to suffer or enjoy life. That is, after all, what they’re doing to you and what appears to be inspiring your words. You are living my worst nightmare right now – someone whose life went off the rails through no choices or “mistakes” they made and had their savings and desired future wiped out. My empathy and compassion for you are so deep as to be essentially bottomless. I feel greatly when I read of your despair, but I don’t think there’s anything that can fix what is broken for you at this time. I guess that’s why you write poems like this. You can only express your pain, not cure it. I have no empty words of comfort to offer you. Though I often have such words for others in your situation, I don’t think they would be of use to you, so I can only say that I care, for what little value that carries.

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on June 20, 2011 at 7:49 pm said:
william burroughs took a bunch of heroin throughout his life, smoked, drank, played with fire arms on a regular basis, took the strongest lsd known to humankind–and survived to old age, but first he shot his wife in the head while playing william tell, killed her, and then went on to describe a world no one wanted to hear about, until he showed it to them, and my point here is, he wasn’t sure if he was already dead. we don’t know what this is. i’m assuming it’s a portal to a better place–or else nothingness. either way, we’re all traveling in the same general direction. there’s solidarity in that. even more, though, i like saying the things i realized as a kid but kept quiet about. stuff like this being a christian nation and all. etc. at this point, i can say what i want and no one blinks. i think the littlest ones inside me–the least among us–enjoy this process immensely. right down to the obscenities.

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on June 21, 2011 at 12:19 am said:
also, i agree about everyone doing their best no matter how limited and annoying to me…

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Val on June 21, 2011 at 11:06 am said:
Your poetry is awe-inspiring my dear…

I’m a “cafeteria Catholic” myself: raised in the Church, fallen away, but now I come back & take what I need & can use from Her…

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on June 21, 2011 at 1:07 pm said:
thanks, val. hugs to you. nothing against catholics, but i don’t like oppression or blind faith–very different. i mean, jane fonda is a christian (don’t know what kind), and she seems smart and keen on trying to change the status quo. on the other hand, i think folks tend to forget who burned sweet little old ladies and gay folks (etc) at the stake, and why, and how those acts were justified and accepted by priests, no less, you know, holy men of god. we contemplate extreme actions like those, and things church-going nazis did or didn’t do but kept silent about, and we feel horrified (rightly so), but we also hold a strange dual consciousness, as if beautiful people aren’t dying right now because of similar rhetoric that remains unquestioned. (plus, for other reasons, duh.) :) i hope you are well! also, peace to you and me and everybody.





Pain is not all in your head.



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what we think we know about stress: part three

Part 3: 

Leptin’s Multifaceted Role in the Human Stress Response  :-)

But first, to recap:

  • Part Two highlights current research and biomedical perspectives on acute stress; chronic stress; traumatic stress; stress and sleep; stress and endogenous dopamine; stress and neurological disorders; and, finally—physiological stress responses embedded in social relationships and within socioepolitical contexts.

  • Evidence for a novel peripheral action of leptin as a metabolic signal to the adrenal gland: leptin inhibits cortisol release directly (1997) Bornstein et al.  The impact of  glucocorticoids (and the functions of leptin) on the hypothalamic-pituitary-adrenal (HPA) axis indicates a crucial “interaction of leptin with the glucocorticoid system.” Hence this study tested leptin’s effects on adrenalcortical steroidogenisis. in addition to “the effects of leptin on basal and ACTH-stimulated cortisol secretion” The research results showed “leptin inhibits cortisol production in adrenocortical cells and therefore appears to be a metabolic signal that directly acts on the adrenal gland.” (emphasis mine)
  • Leptin down-regulates the steroid producing system in the adrenal (1998) Kruse, et al.  “Leptin inhibits the secretion of cortisol in primary cultures of bovine adrenocortical cells…To analyze if leptin regulates other major enzymes involved in adrenal steroidogenesis we tested its effect on mRNA expression for two further key enzymes…” Study results showed that “leptin reduces cortisol synthesis in the adrenal by down-regulating the steroid producing enzyme cascade in the cortical cell.” (emphasis mine)
  • Leptin and the adrenal gland (2000) Glasow & Bornstein. “Via its receptor in the hypothalamus, leptin modulates the functioning of the hypothalamic-pituitary-adrenal axis and the systemic sympathetic/ adrenomedullary system,…In regard of potential interactions of leptin and adrenal hormones this study intended to characterize the role of leptin in the human adrenal gland….Our data demonstrate that leptin can regulate the human adrenal function directly, via its receptors on adrenocortical cells. Leptin decreased the corticotropin-stimulated release of steroid hormones in vitro without any effect on cell proliferation…This adipo-adrenal interaction mediated by leptin further underscores the close link of metabolism and stress regulation in humans.” (emphasis mine)
  • Circulating leptin and the perioperative neuroendocrinological stress response after pediatric cardiac surgery (2001). Modan-Moses, et al. “Leptin may be involved in the acute stress response, regulating inflammatory parameters of major importance after cardiopulmonary bypass (CPB) surgery. Critically ill patients demonstrated significant increases in leptin levels in response to stress-related cytokines (tumor necrosis factor, interleukin [IL]-1) and abolishment of the circadian rhythm of leptin secretion. We characterized the pattern of leptin secretion in the acute postoperative period in children undergoing cardiac surgery and compared the changes in leptin levels with concomitantly occurring changes in cortisol levels, IL-8, and clinical parameters… CPB is associated with acute changes in circulating leptin levels. These changes parallel those in cortisol, demonstrating an inverse relationship between leptin and cortisol…” (emphasis mine)
  • Leptin: Metabolic control and regulation (2002) Sandoval & Davis.  Leptin’s response to stress (other than stress from decreased energy consumption) has often seemed unclear or inconclusive. For example, “with hypoglycemia stress, the literature may conflict because experimentally hypoglycemia is induced with infusion of insulin, an endocrine factor that can increase leptin levels. With exercise, leptin’s response may depend on duration and intensity of exercise. While it has been clearly shown that the sympathetic nervous system (SNS) inhibits leptin secretion in a variety of experimental modes, the hypothalamic – pituitary –adrenal (HPA) axis may stimulate leptin secretion. This creates a paradox of leptin regulation during stress since both systems are activated with stress. If the SNS inhibition overrides the HPA axis’ activation of leptin secretion, leptin’s role during stress may be to allow a shifting of fuel consumption towards carbohydrate utilization. In type 1 diabetes mellitus, autonomic dysfunction may prevent the fall in leptin during stress. Although obesity is associated with type 2 diabetes mellitus, patients may have decreased leptin levels, especially when glucose is poorly controlled….The purpose of this review to is critically analyze the literature regarding the impact of different types of stress on leptin secretion, the function of leptin during stress, and the role of leptin in the pathophysiology of diabetes.” (emphasis mine)
  • Leptin as an acute stress-related hormone in the fetoplacental circulation. (2002) Y Takahashi, et al. “…Evidence shows that leptin’s fetoplacental circulation is independent of its maternal circulation…In adult humans, leptin is discussed as a stress‐related hormone.… Hypercapnia of the umbilical cord, monitored as fetal distress...correlated with leptin level, suggesting that leptin may be associated with acute stress. In adult humans, a significant correlation was reported between baseline levels of leptin and body mass index 3 days before cholecystectomy, but on the third postoperative day, there were significant increases in the serum levels of cortisol, free fatty acids, leptin, and C‐reactive protein, suggesting that there may be two biological implications of leptin secretion in body mass index and surgical stress. In the fetoplacental circulation, respiratory acidosis, which is one stress‐related factor, may induce leptin secretion. Umbilical cord erythropoietin as an adaptation factor for hypoxia is also associated with cord blood leptin in mothers with insulin‐dependent diabetes mellitus. Intrauterine growth restriction infants show an increased leptin level in the umbilical cord…demonstrating conflicting roles for leptin secretion...In conclusion, although the pathophysiology of leptin secretion in the fetoplacental circulation is complicated and leptin secretion seemingly has contradictory functions, it seems likely that leptin may have two important roles: one as an acute stress‐related hormone, and the other for fetal fat mass control…” (emphasis mine)
  • Leptin levels are dependent on sleep duration: relationships with sympathovagal balance, carbohydrate regulation, cortisol, and thyrotropin (2004). Spiegel, et al.  “The present study tests the hypothesis that circulating levels of leptin…are influenced by sleep duration. We also analyzed associations between leptin and sympathovagal balance, cortisol, TSH, glucose, and insulin under different bedtime conditions…The effects of sleep duration on leptin were quantitatively associated with alterations of the cortisol and TSH profiles…Measures of perceived stress were not increased during sleep restriction. During the study with 8-h bedtimes, hormonal and metabolic parameters were intermediate between those observed with 4-h and 12-h bedtimes. In conclusion, sleep modulates a major component of the neuroendocrine control of [leptin].” (emphasis mine)
  • Circulating leptin and stress-induced cardiovascular activity in humans. (2008) Brydon. et al. “We investigated the relationship between circulating leptin and cardiovascular and inflammatory responses to acute psychological stress in humans...In women only, baseline plasma leptin was significantly associated with stress-induced changes in heart rate…in heart rate variability…and in cardiac preejection period…independent of age, adiposity, and smoking. Women’s plasma leptin levels also correlated with stress-induced elevations in the proinflammatory cytokine interleukin-6…Circulating leptin is an independent predictor of sympathetic cardiovascular activity, parasympathetic withdrawal, and inflammatory responses to stress in women. Because cardiovascular and inflammatory stress responses are predictive of future cardiovascular disease, leptin may be a mechanism mediating the adverse effects of stress and obesity on women’s cardiovascular health.” (emphasis mine)
  • Opposing crosstalk between leptin and glucocorticoids rapidly modulates synaptic excitation via endocannabinoid release. (2010) Malcher-Lopes, et al. “…Here we demonstrate a crosstalk between GC- and leptin-activated signaling pathways that rapidly controls endocannabinoid biosynthesis and release…involved in the regulation of…and the adaptation to stress. [L]eptin…provides the cellular mechanism for a central leptin-mediated regulation of major neuroendocrine axis and therefore represents an endocannabinoid-mediated…mechanism to coordinate the hormonal control of energy homeostasis, fluid balance, cardiovascular regulation, and the stress response. Sustained elevated circulating levels of GCs (e.g., by chronic stress, depression, or in Cushing’s syndrome) or leptin (e.g., in obesity) or GC deficiency (e.g., in Addison’s disease) could result in deregulation of this mechanism, leading to the eating, metabolic, and cardiovascular disorders associated with these pathological conditions.” (emphasis mine)
  • The link between stress and feeding behaviour. (2012) Maniam & Morris. “Exposure to stress is inevitable…throughout the lifespan. The impact of stress experienced in later life has been well documented …The effects of stress early in life are less well known…One of the major impacts of stress besides changes in psychosocial behaviour is altered feeding responses. The system that regulates stress responses, the hypothalamo-pituitary-adrenal axis, also regulates feeding responses…In other words the systems that control food intake and stress responses share the same anatomy and thus each system can influence each other in eliciting a response. Stress is known to alter feeding responses in a bidirectional pattern, with both increases and decreases in intake observed. Stress-induced bidirectional feeding responses underline the complex mechanisms and multiple contributing factors, including…peripheral signals   (leptin, insulin and ghrelin). This review discusses the neuropeptides that regulate feeding behaviour and how their function can be altered through cross-talk with hormones and neuropeptides that also regulate the hypothalamo-pituitary-adrenal axis. In addition, long-term stress induced alterations…and changes in gene expression of neuropeptides regulating stress…will be discussed.” (emphasis mine)
  • Leptin regulates dopamine responses to sustained stress in humans (2012) “Neural systems that identify and respond to salient stimuli are critical for survival in a complex and changing environment…Leptin is known to influence endocrine response to stress …This suggests that leptin…is important for motivational drives [and] may be additionally influenced by stress….This study directly links the leptin system with central dopaminergic function in the context of a universal stressor, moderate levels of sustained pain, in humans. Our results show that…leptin serves as a regulator of mesolimbic dopamine system during stressful, salient aversive states…Multiple brain regions are involved in assessing saliency and the emotional value of environmental stimuli that predict reward or threat… Taken together, this suggests that stress interacts with the leptin system’s ability to modulate the dopaminergic response to salient cues…Further, effective leptin signaling to central dopaminergic systems may facilitate an individual’s ability to attend to other salient cues (e.g. threat, stress, mating opportunities) en lieu of salient food-related cues…Effective leptin signaling to the central dopaminergic systems may influence an individual’s ability to attend to other salient cues which appears to be influenced by biological changes secondary to disease and stress…Future examination of these processes…appears warranted, given the role of the dopaminergic system in a number of pathological states that involve a dysregulation of motivated behavior, such as substance use, eating and mood disorders.” (emphasis mine)
  • Adipokines during early abstinence of crack cocaine in dependent women reporting childhood maltreatment. (2013) Levandowski, et al. “Childhood maltreatment has been associated with addiction and immune dysregulation…The aim of the study was to compare plasma levels of adipokines [e.g. leptin] during early abstinence in crack cocaine dependent women with (CM+) and without history of childhood maltreatment (CM-). One hundred four crack cocaine female users were followed for 20 days in a detoxification inpatient treatment unit…All crack users increased leptin plasma levels during early abstinence…Crack users reporting childhood maltreatment exhibited a significant reduction in plasma levels of adiponectin and resistin when compared to CM- group…This is the first study evaluating adipokines during crack cocaine abstinence. Our results suggest a modulator effect of childhood maltreatment on inflammatory status in treatment-seeking crack cocaine dependents during early abstinence.” (emphasis mine)
  • Metabolic syndrome–from the neurotrophic hypothesis to a theory (2013). Hristova MG.  “Metabolic syndrome (MetS) is a complex and heterogeneous disease characterized by central obesity, impaired glucose metabolism, dyslipidemia, arterial hypertension, insulin resistance and high-sensitivity C-reactive protein. In 2006, a…hypothesis considered the neurotrophins a key factor in MetS development. Chronic inflammatory and/or psychoemotional distress provoke a series of neuroimmunoendocrine interactions…An early and a late clinical stage in the course of MetS are defined….The important role of two neurotrophic factors…and, especially, of leptin for the development of MetS, obesity and type 2 diabetes mellitus is illustrated… A special attention is paid to the activity of the hypothalamo-pituitary-adrenal axis after stress. The application of the neurotrophic theory of MetS could contribute to the etiological diagnosis and individualized management of MetS by eliminating the chronic distress…and consequent pathology.” (emphasis mine)
  • Leptin influence in craving and relapse of alcoholics and smokers (2013) Aguiar-Nemer; Toffolo; da Silva; Laranjeira & Silva-Fonseca.  “Leptin inhibits signaling of dopamine in the nucleus accumbens, suggesting its role in regulating stress…The aim of this study was to review of the literature on the influence of leptin in the craving for alcohol and tobacco and whether there is already evidence that leptin may be a biomarker to indicate risk for craving and relapse…Only 12 articles were met the inclusion criteria, relating leptin with craving in alcoholics (n = 10) and smokers (n = 2)….Leptin levels increase during abstinence and this may be related to a reduction of dopaminergic action in mesolimbic system, resulting in a greater intensity of craving and maintenance of addictive behavior. Although there are few studies, the most recent results indicate the usefulness of leptin as a marker of risk for relapse among smokers and alcoholics in abstinence.” (emphasis mine)
  • Neuroendocrine Circuits Governing Energy Balance and Stress Regulation: Functional Overlap and Therapeutic Implications (2014)  Karen K Ryan & Yvonne M Ulrich-Lai.   SUMMARY: “Significant comorbidities between obesity-related metabolic disease and stress-related psychological disorders suggest important functional interactions between energy balance and brain stress integration. Largely overlapping neural circuits control these systems, and this anatomical arrangement optimizes opportunities for mutual influence. Here we first review the current literature identifying effects of metabolic neuroendocrine signals on stress regulation, and vice versa. Next, the contributions of reward-driven food intake to these metabolic and stress interactions are discussed. Lastly, we consider the interrelationships between metabolism, stress, and reward in light of their important implications in the development of therapies for metabolism- or stress-related disease.”

And THAT’s just a teeny-weeny-tiny sample of leptin’s accomplishments. You can explore a few hundred more of leptin’s charms—scattered around my blog—if you look here, here, here, and/or here.

Leptin, apparently, does not discriminate. (Unlike…ahem…never mind.)

In other words, leptin interacts with (i.e. alters and/or is altered by) stress responses of  practically any kind, and perhaps almost any intensity—given the wide ranging brain-territory covered by various leptin receptors (as more than one researcher has noted.)

I particularly appreciate the study suggesting a woman’s adiposity (typically HYPERleptinemic compared to a man’s) may perhaps demonstrate a protective cardiovascular capacity compared to that of a man (whose circulating leptin quantity by about (his) middle age is typically a mere one-third of the leptin volume sported by his female counterpart, kilo for kilo .)

However, my ABSOLUTE FAVORITE journal article about Leptin and Stress Adaptation is the finely crafted piece (in the above list) shown in last place: Neuroendocrine Circuits Governing Energy Balance and Stress Regulation: Functional Overlap and Therapeutic Implications (2014) written by Karen K Ryan & Yvonne M Ulrich-Lai.  The final phrase in their abstract makes my heart sing. (Seriously.) They GET it…apparently…for they refer to “stress-related disease,” as if describing ACTUAL AND PROFOUNDLY WORRISOME CONDITIONS for which helpful “therapies” have not yet been discovered or articulated.

Oh. Wait. By golly, now here’s an ingenious therapy just waiting to hit pharmacy shelves around the globe. Any. Decade. Now.


Stress, adaptation, and health disparities associated with status quo socioeconomic conditions and oppressive norms (e.g. poverty, stigma, racism.) Hey, this stuff is truly fascinating. Trust me. :-)

I’m going somewhere with all this….research…I think…

So, patience please?…..Or, you could simply wait a couple days—by then I’m bound to churn out another *poem.* Theoretically, it could even be a poem about something HAPPY!  :-)


what’s next

i don’t know what’s next (does anyone?)

perhaps it’s better this way

WTFD has me by the balls

no real relief in sight for the moment

i guess i had to get convinced

beyond any doubt

WTFD isn’t all in my noggin

isn’t mine to manage or control

hence all my research and reading about stress and trauma

long term consequences

irreversible damage

yadda yadda


i didn’t want to believe

i’m deteriorating physiologically

so fucking fast

multiple systems are not failing 100%

they simply cannot keep up with this insane pace

this zero mph pace that finds me huddled in the same spot

hour after hour day after day week after week

and so on and so forth

(with very rare and brief interludes of pseudo sleep)


i’ve never quite known what this expression meant

to burst into tears over nothing

until the past year

now it pains me to confess

most days that’s my biggest accomplishment


for hours i howl and howl in agony as if i’ve suddenly been informed

the love of my life was just found tortured to death

it’s feels  that intense and painful


so i guess i’m psychotic now

probably not by-the-book-psychotic




i have a bottle of anti-psych meds

so i suppose i can guess what’s next


tried them a few months ago in an emergency


discovered that

(even when taken in supposedly-sub-therapeutic doses)

they left me with a sliver of cognitive function

completely numb


without emotion without desire

without love


also  i gained 20 pounds in 10 days without even trying

(onset of diabetes = typical reaction for many users)

oh i don’t give a shit about my appearance


so that part is not upsetting


the upsetting part is facing the fact

this is the best available solution

even though it’s no solution at all except


the data suggests

i’m slightly less likely to do something

rash and irreversible


that is Big Modern Medicine’s best option for me

in 2014

in my country



it is the best LEGAL option that my money can buy

and yet


(lest i forget)

i am the crazy one


what we think we know about stress: part two


In Part One (posted on July 13, 2014) I quoted several relevant stress definitions (e.g. acute, chronic, toxic, traumatic) and provided research summaries about the consequences of Early Life Stress.

Part Two (posted right below) provides summaries of research/theory about acute stress; chronic stress; traumatic stress; stress and sleep; stress and endogenous dopamine; stress and neurological disorders; and stress responses embedded within social relationships and sociopolitical contexts.

Stress and disorders of the stress system (2009) ”Stress occurs when homeostasis is threatened or perceived to be so; homeostasis is re-established by various physiological and behavioral adaptive responses…The stress response is mediated by the stress system, partly located in the central nervous system and partly in peripheral organs. The central, greatly interconnected effectors of this system include the hypothalamic hormones…and autonomic norepinephrine centers in the brainstem. Targets of these effectors include the executive and/or cognitive, reward and fear systems, the wake-sleep centers of the brain, the growth, reproductive and thyroid hormone axes, and the gastrointestinal, cardiorespiratory, metabolic, and immune systems. Optimal basal activity and responsiveness of the stress system is essential for a sense of well-being, successful performance of tasks, and appropriate social interactions. By contrast, excessive or inadequate basal activity and responsiveness of this system might impair development, growth and body composition, and lead to a host of behavioral and somatic pathological conditions…” (emphasis mine)

  • Leptin regulates dopamine responses to sustained stress in humans (2012) “Neural systems that identify and respond to salient stimuli are critical for survival in a complex and changing environment…Leptin is known to influence endocrine response to stress and alter stress-induced food consumption. This suggests that leptin…is important for motivational drives [and] may be additionally influenced by stress….This study directly links the leptin system with central dopaminergic function in the context of a universal stressor, moderate levels of sustained pain, in humans. Our results show that…leptin serves as a regulator of mesolimbic dopamine system during stressful, salient aversive states…Multiple brain regions are involved in assessing saliency and the emotional value of environmental stimuli that predict reward or threat… Taken together, this suggests that stress interacts with the leptin system’s ability to modulate the dopaminergic response to salient cues…Further, effective leptin signaling to central dopaminergic systems may facilitate an individual’s ability to attend to other salient cues (e.g. threat, stress, mating opportunities) en lieu of salient food-related cues…Effective leptin signaling to the central dopaminergic systems may influence an individual’s ability to attend to other salient cues which appears to be influenced by biological changes secondary to disease and stress…Future examination of these processes…appears warranted, given the role of the dopaminergic system in a number of pathological states that involve a dysregulation of motivated behavior, such as substance use, eating and mood disorders.” (emphasis mine)

Vulnerability to stroke: implications of perinatal programming of the hypothalamic-pituitary-adrenal axis (2009) “Chronic stress is capable of exacerbating each major, modifiable, endogenous risk factor for cerebrovascular and cardiovascular disease. Indeed, exposure to stress can increase both the incidence and severity of stroke, presumably through activation of the hypothalamic-pituitary-adrenal (HPA) axis. Now that characterization of the mechanisms underlying epigenetic programming of the HPA axis is well underway, there has been renewed interest in examining the role of early environment on the evolution of health conditions across the entire lifespan. Indeed, neonatal manipulations in rodents that reduce stress responsivity, and subsequent life-time exposure to glucocorticoids, are associated with a reduction in the development of neuroendocrine, neuroanatomical, and cognitive dysfunctions that typically progress with age. Although improved day to day regulation of the HPA axis also may be accompanied by a decrease in stroke risk, evidence from rodent studies suggest that an associated cost could be increased susceptibility to inflammation and neuronal death in the event that a stroke does occur and the individual is exposed to persistently elevated corticosteroids. Given its importance in regulation of health and disease states, any long-term modulation of the HPA axis is likely to be associated with both benefits and potential risks…” (emphasis mine)

Shame: an acute stress response to interpersonal traumatization (2013) “This paper conceptualizes shame as an acute stress response to an unacceptable view of oneself mediated through another’s perspective…the author first illustrates how shame may induce a depressive paralysis and self-hurtful intent when the goal of reconciliation is thwarted. She then addresses how shame ignited by narcissistic injury can mobilize aggressive behavior toward others, motivated by a need to restore the self. The goals of this paper are to demonstrate that the configurations of shame are manifestations of interpersonal traumatization, to define them as predictable stress responses…and to propose the use of these conceptualizations in the empirical study of interpersonal traumatization.” (emphasis mine)

Acute stress response and posttraumatic stress disorder in traffic accident victims: a one-year prospective, follow-up study (1999) “This study was designed to assess the natural course of posttraumatic symptoms formation, as well as the degree to which acute stress reactions predict later posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD) in injured traffic accident victims….In this study, a significant portion of injured traffic accident victims manifested PTSD 1 year after the event. The development of PTSD at 1 year can be predicted as early as 1 week after the accident on the basis of the existence and severity of early PTSD-related symptoms. However, the first 3 months following the accident appear to be the critical period for the development of PTSD.” (emphasis mine)

Chronic Stress Induces Impairment of Spatial Working Memory Because of Prefrontal Dopaminergic Dysfunction (2000)Although the mechanism responsible for cognitive deficits in stress-related neuropsychiatric disorders has been obscure, prefrontal cortical (PFC) dopaminergic dysfunction is thought to be involved. In animals, the mesoprefrontal dopaminergic system is particularly vulnerable to stress, and chronic stress induces working memory impairment…Furthermore, the change of dopaminergic activity in the PFC induced by stress is thought to express as a stress response, not as a disorder of organic function. We have previously reported that chronic stress…induces a organic disorder such as hippocampal neuronal degeneration…These [current] results indicate that chronic stress induces working memory impairment through a D1 receptor-mediated hypodopaminergic mechanism in the PFC….” (emphasis mine) 

Chronic stress causes frontostriatal reorganization and affects decision-making (2009) “The ability to shift between different behavioral strategies is necessary for appropriate decision-making. Here, we show that chronic stress biases decision-making strategies, affecting the ability…to perform actions on the basis of their consequences…in making choices, rats subjected to chronic stress became insensitive to changes in outcome value and resistant to changes in action-outcome contingency. Furthermore, chronic stress caused opposing structural changes in…corticostriatal circuits underlying these different behavioral strategies, with atrophy of medial prefrontal cortex…and hypertrophy of the sensorimotor striatum. These data suggest that…chronic stress leads to a bias in behavioral strategies toward habit.” (emphasis mine)

Can stress trigger Parkinson’s disease? (2014) “Can emotional stress trigger Parkinson’s disease (PD)? This idea is compelling but not new. More than 100 years ago, Gowers wrote that prolonged anxiety and emotional shock are ‘the most common antecedents of Parkinson’s disease’ and advised his patients to refrain from ‘all causes of mental strain and of physical exhaustion’. Extreme psychological stress, such as the holocaust, has been associated with PD and in some studies ex-prisoners of war had a significantly higher incidence of developing PD several decades after their release…Chronic stress…causes a prolonged activation of the hypothalamic–pituitary–adrenal (HPA) axis…This can cause…type 2 diabetes mellitus…or hypertension. A convincing link between chronic stress and neurodegeneration has been now established in patients with Alzheimer’s disease…Chronic stress can lead to reduced dopaminergic tone [levels]…and higher salivary cortisol levels…Stress reduces regulatory T-lymphocytes by 50% in patients who suffer from post-traumatic stress disorder and a similar profound reduction has been found in PD. Chronic stress has been also found to induce the proinflammatory networks…which in turn activate the HPA axis. Upregulation of cytokines has been linked with sudden death after major emotional trauma… Further, dysregulation of the HPA axis can cause dendritic remodelling, dysfunction of neurogenesis, apoptosis in hippocampal neurons and result in increased oxidative stress…” (emphasis mine)

The prefrontal cortex as a key target of the maladaptive response to stress (2007) “Because prefrontal cortex (PFC) dysfunction characterizes many stress-related disorders, we here analyzed the impact of chronic stress in rats on the integrity of the hippocampal-PFC pathway, monitored by behavioral and electrophysiological function and morphological assessment. We show that chronic stress impairs synaptic plasticity…in addition, it induces selective atrophy within the PFC and severely disrupts working memory and behavioral flexibility, two functions that depend on PFC integrity…” (emphasis mine)

Stress signalling pathways that impair prefrontal cortex structure and function (2009) “The prefrontal cortex (PFC) – the most evolved brain region – subserves our highest-order cognitive abilities. However, it is also the brain region that is most sensitive to the detrimental effects of stress exposure. Even quite mild acute uncontrollable stress can cause a rapid and dramatic loss of prefrontal cognitive abilities, and more prolonged stress exposure causes architectural changes in prefrontal dendrites. Recent research has begun to reveal the intracellular signalling pathways that mediate the effects of stress on the PFC. This research has provided clues as to why genetic or environmental insults that disinhibit stress signalling pathways can lead to symptoms of profound prefrontal cortical dysfunction in mental illness…” (emphasis mine)

Chronic stress impairs prefrontal cortex-dependent response inhibition and spatial working memory (2012) “Chronic stress leads to neurochemical and structural alterations in the prefrontal cortex (PFC) that correspond to deficits in PFC-mediated behaviors. The present study examined the effects of chronic restraint stress on response inhibition… These findings are the first to show that chronic stress impairs both response inhibition and working memory, two behaviors that have never been directly compared within the same animals after chronic stress...” (emphasis mine)

Stress and Sleep Disorder (2012) “…This paper investigates the literature regarding the activity of the hypothalamic-pituitary-adrenal (HPA) axis, one of the main neuroendocrine stress systems during sleep in order to identify relations between stress and sleep disorder and the treatment of stress-induced insomnia. Sleep and wakefulness are regulated by the aminergic, cholinergic brainstem and hypothalamic systems. Activation of the HPA and/or the sympathetic nervous systems results in wakefulness and these hormones including corticotropin-releasing hormone (CRH), adrenocorticotropic hormone (ACTH), cortisol or corticosterone, noradrenaline, and adrenaline, are associated with attention and arousal. Stress-related insomnia leads to a vicious circle by activating the HPA system. An awareness of the close interaction between sleep and stress systems is emerging and the hypothalamus is now recognized as a key center for sleep regulation…” (emphasis mine)

  • The beneficial effects of leptin on REM sleep deprivation-induced cognitive deficits in mice (2013) “Leptin, a 167 amino acid peptide, is synthesized predominantly in the adipose tissues…Recent studies indicate that leptin receptor is expressed with high levels in many brain regions that may regulate synaptic plasticity. Here we show that deprivation of rapid eye movement (REMD) sleep resulted in impairment of both cue and contextual fear memory…Leptin receptors…are expressed with high levels in many extra-hypothalamic brain regions, including the hippocampus, brain stem, cortex, amygdala, and cerebellum implying that leptin may modulate other brain functions as well as regulate energy homeostasis. Indeed…the performance of memory tasks was improved following administration of leptin into the hippocampus. Exposure of hippocampal neurons to leptin resulted in a rapid increase in the density and motility of dendritic filopodia as well as the number of excitatory synapses…In the present study, we have demonstrated that leptin rescues REMD-induced impairment of fear memory consolidation. We further investigated the mechanisms underlying the action of leptin…” (emphasis mine)
  • Quantity and Quality of Sleep and Incidence of Type 2 Diabetes: A systematic review and meta-analysis (2009) Quantity and quality of sleep consistently and significantly predict the risk of the development of type 2 diabetes… Lack of sleep exerts deleterious effects on a variety of systems with detectable changes in metabolic, endocrine, and immune pathways…studies indicate that disturbed or reduced sleep is associated with glucose intolerance, insulin resistance, reduced acute insulin response to glucose, and a reduction in the disposition index, thus predisposing individuals to type 2 diabetes. Causative mechanisms relating sleep problems to adverse health outcomes include reciprocal changes in circulating levels of leptin and ghrelin…Increased cortisol secretion and altered growth hormone metabolism have also been implicated). Low-grade inflammation is activated during short sleep, with possible implications not only for cardiovascular disease but also for other chronic conditions including cancer…” (emphasis mine)

Neuroendocrine Regulation and Metabolism of Glucose and Lipids in Primary Chronic Insomnia: A Prospective Case-Control Study (2013) “The present study investigated whether primary chronic insomnia in otherwise healthy, normal weight women is associated with metabolic and neuroendocrine changes that promote the onset of diabetes. Midnight salivary cortisol concentrations were significantly increased in patients with primary chronic insomnia when compared to controls, indicating dysregulation of the hypothalamo-pituitary-adrenal (HPA) axis…[Study results suggest] dysregulation of HPA is a common feature of both acute and chronic sleep curtailment…Noteworthy, insomnia can also provoke a stress reaction, including the activation of the HPA-axis...Abnormal cortisol levels may precipitate more severe stages of insomnia…” (emphasis mine)

Stress of dying is not suppressed by high-dose morphine or by dementia (2004) “Hypothalamo-pituitary-adrenal (HPA)-axis activation is a response of the organism to psychological and physical stress, resulting in elevated levels of glucocorticoids, mainly cortisol in humans. In our previous studies we found post-mortem blood and cerebrospinal fluid (CSF) cortisol levels to be up to 20-fold higher than in vivo levels. Since clinical observations point to similar strong elevations of cortisol in fatally ill patients, we suggested that the high post-mortem cortisol levels might be due to the stress during the process of dying. We hypothesized that if the cortisol rise during dying is due to the psychological stress of the impending death, then the rise in cortisol should be inversely proportional to the degree of dementia, and that high-dose morphine giving analgesia, sedation, and sleep would suppress this response…High-dose morphine did not cause a suppression of cortisol rise, neither in controls nor in Alzheimer patients. Our results indicate that the extreme elevations of cortisol levels during dying are rather due to the organic stress of the organism than to psychological stress of the patient, and is not suppressed by high-dose morphine.” (emphasis mine)

The role of the hypothalamic-pituitary-adrenal axis dysfunction in the pathophysiology of alcohol misuse and suicidal behavior in adolescents (2007) “Alterations in the mechanisms that regulate hypothalamic-pituitary-adrenal (HPA) axis activity predate the development of alcohol use disorders. Human and animal studies indicate that chronic alcohol consumption induces a persistent impairment in the ability of the HPA axis to respond to stress. Therefore, HPA axis abnormalities may contribute to the development of alcohol use disorders and may be a result of alcohol misuse. HPA axis interacts with serotonergic mechanisms….An abnormal interaction between the HPA mechanisms and serotonergic systems may substantially contribute to suicidal behavior in adolescents, because abnormalities in HPA and serotonin functions may be inherited and may manifest at young age….HPA dysregulation may contribute to both alcohol abuse and suicidal behavior …” (emphasis mine)

Circadian cortisol, depressive symptoms and neurological impairment in early multiple sclerosis (2011) “There is evidence for the existence of a hyperactive hypothalamus-pituitary-adrenal (HPA) axis and its potential role in disease progression in multiple sclerosis (MS). Depressive symptoms are also common in MS. At the same time, depressive symptoms are often associated with an elevated circadian cortisol secretion. So far, little is known about the interplay between depressive symptoms and circadian HPA axis abnormalities in MS. Here we investigated depressive symptoms, circadian HPA axis function, cortisol awakening response (CAR) and neurological impairment in 32 early stage relapsing-remitting MS (RRMS) patients…RRMS patients expressed a significantly higher CAR when compared to healthy controls….In summary, there is evidence that a hyperactive HPA axis is primarily present in MS patients expressing moderately elevated depressive symptoms. MS patients with only few depressive symptoms do not significantly differ in CAR when compared to healthy controls. To the best of our knowledge, this is the first study showing that in early stage MS, a hyperactive HPA axis is primarily present in patients who express moderate depressive symptoms…” (emphasis mine)

Cortisol awakening response is linked to disease course and progression in multiple sclerosis (2013). “Dysregulation of the hypothalamus-pituitary-adrenal (HPA) axis has frequently been reported in multiple sclerosis (MS). So far, HPA axis function in MS has predominantly been studied under pharmacological stimulation… Circadian cortisol release, in particular CAR, shows a course specific pattern with most pronounced release in RRMS. There is also some evidence for greater CAR in RRMS patients with EDSS progression. As a consequence, CAR might be of predictive value in terms of neurological disability in RRMS patients. The possible role of neuroendocrine-immune interactions in MS pathogenesis is further discussed….” (emphasis mine)

Metabolic, autonomic and immune markers for cardiovascular disease in posttraumatic stress disorder (2014) “Posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD) has been associated with significantly greater incidence of heart disease. Numerous studies have indicated that health problems for individuals with PTSD occur earlier in life than in the general population. Multiple mechanistic pathways have been suggested to explain cardiovascular disese (CVD) risk in PTSD, including neurochemical, behavioral, and immunological changes. The present paper is a review of recent research that examines cardiovascular and immune risk profiles of individuals with PTSD. First, we address the relatively new evidence that the constellation of risk factors commonly experienced in PTSD fits the profile of metabolic syndrome. Next we examine the findings concerning hypertension/blood pressure in particular. The literature on sympathetic and parasympathetic responsivity in PTSD is reviewed. Last, we discuss recent findings concerning immune functioning in PTSD that may have a bearing on the high rates of CVD and other illnesses. Our primary goal is to synthesize the existing literature by examining factors that overlap mechanistically to increase the risk of developing CVD in PTSD.” (emphasis mine)

Structural stigma and hypothalamic-pituitary-adrenocortical axis reactivity in lesbian, gay, and bisexual young adults (2014) “Youth exposed to extreme adverse life conditions have blunted cortisol responses to stress.This study aims to examine whether growing up in highly stigmatizing environments similarly shapes stigmatized individuals’ physiological responses to identity-related stress….Lesbian, gay, and bisexual young adults who were raised in highly stigmatizing environments as adolescents evidenced a blunted cortisol response following the TSST compared to those from low-stigma environments. CONCLUSIONS: The stress of growing up in environments that target gays and lesbians for social exclusion may exert biological effects that are similar to traumatic life experiences...” (emphasis mine)

Explicit versus implicit fat-stigma (2012). “Human biologists are increasingly engaging with current global trends toward obesity. However, little is considered about how variation in cultural views of “fat” might shape the biology of obesity, such as through pathways related to socially induced stress. Recent research indicates elevated levels of explicit fat-stigma in middle income nations, suggesting potentially high levels of psychosocial stress around “being fat.” We use the case of Paraguay to test if high levels of explicit prejudice around “being fat” also suggest internalization of those ideas in ways that might predict stress effects…Women in Paraguay reveal high levels of explicit anti-fat bias in an interview on a standard (Attitudes to Obese People) scale, suggesting a shared cultural norm of fat-is-bad. However, Paraguayan women display, on average, no anti-fat stigma in cognitive testing. CONCLUSION: In contrast to what has been observed in industrialized nations, the high levels of explicit fat-stigma does not necessarily correlate with high levels of implicit fat-stigma. This means that pathways between obesity, psychosocial stress, and health outcomes may be very different across socioecological contexts…” (emphasis mine)

Physiological stress response to loss of social influence and threats to masculinity (2014) “Social influence is an important component of contemporary conceptualizations of masculinity in the U.S. Men who fail to achieve masculinity by maintaining social influence in the presence of other men may be at risk of stigmatization. As such, men should be especially likely to exhibit a stress response to loss of social influence in the presence of other men. This study assesses whether men who lose social influence exhibit more of a stress response than men who gain social influence…Cortisol is used as a measure of stress response because it is known to increase in response to loss of social esteem. Results show that young men who lose social influence while working with other young men exhibit cortisol response. In contrast women do not exhibit cortisol response to loss of social influence, nor do men working with women. Results are consistent with the hypothesis that loss of social influence in men may be associated with a physiological stress response…This physiological response to loss of social influence underscores the importance to men of achieving masculinity through gaining and maintaining social influence, and avoiding the stigma associated with the failure to do so…” (emphasis mine)

Decoupling neural networks from reality: dissociative experiences in torture victims are reflected in abnormal brain waves in left frontal cortex (2006) “From a neuroscience perspective, little is known about the long-term effect of torture. Dissociative experiences and posttraumatic stress disorder are often the results of this experience. We examined psychological dissociation within a group of 23 torture victims and report its manifestations within neural networks in the human brain. In particular, we observed that dissociative experiences are associated with slow abnormal brain waves generated in left ventrolateral frontal cortex. Given that focal slow waves often result from depriving neural networks of major input, the present results may indicate decoupling of frontal affective processors from left cortical language areas. This interpretation is consistent with the fact that disturbed access to structured verbal memory concerning traumatic events is a core feature of the dissociative experience.” (emphasis mine)

The role of abusive states of being in interrogation (2013). Interrogation, the questioning of persons detained by police, military, or intelligence organizations, is designed to extract information that a subject may resist disclosing. Interrogation techniques are frequently predicated on inducing mental states of despair, dread, dependency, and debility that weaken an individual’s resistance. Descriptions of techniques from 2 Central Intelligence Agency training manuals are illustrated by examples from interviews of and writings by Murat Kurnaz, who was held at Guantánamo Bay Detention Camp for 5 years. Interrogation techniques are designed to create a destabilizing sense of shock; undermine an individual’s grasp on reality; and provoke internal psychological division, self-conflict, and confusion. The long-term effects of interrogation often include posttraumatic stress disorder as well as states of anxiety, depression, and depersonalization.” (emphasis mine)

Stimulus deprivation and overstimulation as dissociogenic agents in postmodern oppressive societies (2013) “Societal conditions associated with overstimulation or understimulation may precipitate and maintain oppression among individuals and communities by inducing dissociation. Distortion of reality and the flooding of everyday awareness with irrelevant information by mass media is a type of community-wide overstimulation. Alternatively, stimulus deprivation enables single-minded thinking to be narrowly preoccupied with rigid religious ideas, traditional rituals, and postmodern thought and behavior patterns. Provoked sex is utilized as a soothing tool for those who live in overstimulation and as an opportunity for transient enjoyment and rejuvenation for those who live in stimulus deprivation. Chronic exposure to disproportionate stimuli resurrects the trauma-based developmental detachment between the sociological and psychological selves of the individual at the cost of the latter. The enlarged sociological self of the individual is misused to induce a conforming identity transformation of individuals and entire communities that is a prerequisite to setting and maintaining an oppressive system. Constituting overstimulation itself, the enduring fear of chaos in a world akin to crisis enables deliberate acceptance of oppression to restore a sense of control. In fact, the expectancy of crisis triggers the trauma-related dissociative fears of individual internal chaos, which are misused, in turn, to aggravate fears of external chaos again. By facilitating the denial of internal fears rather than integrating them, psychological theories and practices of the past century have failed in addressing the problem of individual and societal oppression…” (emphasis mine)

This appears to be an appropriate place for me to pause, and contemplate. Or perhaps to invite a new partner to this fiesta, say, some form of entertaining, critical-social-analysis to accompany me on the open road—to see where a balls to the wall rigorous test drive will take us… Coming up (sooner or later):

  • Porges’ Polyvagal Stress Response Theory
  • Scientism as force of domination, tool of oppression and hidden weapon of traumatic stress…

Later! :-)